Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Recent Events

I have been assimilated by the Facebook virus.
It was only a matter of time and resistance was futile. I kept putting off friends who said I should join.

"It's fun!" they would say, " you get to touch base with old friends from high school or whatever. "
"There's fun games and shit, you'll like it".

It took a 13 year old boy to convince me. My nephew has a Facebook account. I don't get to see him very often and I like knowing what is going on with him. So, I joined.

In a 48 hour period I had been contacted by several people from high school.

I have stated before that I went to high school in Elko, NV. When I graduated I left and really haven't looked back. I have never gone to reunions or looked people up when I went there to visit my sister.

I have to say that I have been overwhelmed by the response to my joining Facebook and I think I mean that in a good way. In high school, I wasn't popular but I knew just about everyone on some level. I didn't party and really didn't feel like I was in with the mormon kids either. I was just this loner weird girl who was trying to get through the experience the best she could.

I didn't look back...

I have now started to look back.

I have found that leaving and not looking back is something I have cultivated all of my life and I have come to the conclusion that this has not served me. I walked away from Elko, I walked away from most of my family, I walked away from the gay community, I walked away from the theatre. I have been facing feelings, thoughts, regrets, resentments and all sorts of stuff I should've dealt with years ago. I have also been reunited with some people who I have dearly missed.

Sometimes I find myself looking in the mirror and seeing a room full of strangers in the reflection. Well, its time I knew them for who they are.

1 comment:

Aisling the Bard said...

And whom, exactly, might I be friending on Facebook? Please e-mail me your name so we can connect, 'k?